This past December while visiting family in Michigan, Amanda and I enjoyed a show by our favorite band, Over the Rhine. One of the songs that really caught my attention was, Only God can Save us Now. Karin, the lead singer, explained that she wrote the song not long after her mother had to be moved to an assisted care home due to a stroke. The song is a tribute to some of the people in the home where her mom lived. Linford, Karin's husband described it as "a head on collision between comedy and tragedy," very funny, yet touching and serious. There was Barb who would "borrow" meds from the med-cart, Bob who would repeatedly say, "How Now Brown Cow", and Miss Cleve who would victoriously sing "Hallelujah." The song culminates with the chorus, "only God can save us now."

As I listened to this song the other day, I was struck by the reality that brokenness which births faith is the first step of finding our salvation in God. In Matthew 18:3 Jesus says, “Truly, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven." Why would Jesus commend us to become like a child to enter the kingdom of heaven when as adult we seem much smarter and wiser when it comes to spiritual things? The answer lies in a child's natural disposition towards trust, humility, and faith. When I hold and pray with one of my daughters who were awaken by a bad dream their world is completely secure. They don't have a back-up plan in case this daddy thing doesn't work. Instead, they fully trust in their daddy's capacity to protect and comfort them. Unfortunately, as we grow up we tend to become our own genius, foolishly believing the lie that we have everything under control. God's challenge in Matthew 18:3 for us is to take on the traits of childlike humility because until we shed our self-reliance and affirm our own brokenness we will foolishly believe we have no need for God.
Our first steps towards the Gospel begin with humble recognition that only God can save and redeem us (Romans 5:6-10), the first step of discipleship is humble recognition that only God can save and sanctify us, and the last step of discipleship is humbly understanding that only God could save and keep us from stumbling.
I suppose it is good that I am not walking around the house singing, "How Now Brown Cow", but if that is what it takes for me to recognize that, "Only God can save me", may God break me...and spare the sanity of my wife and kids:) May God mercifully bring us to the point that we gladly recognize, "Only God can save us, sanctify us, and keep us."